This evening I walked into the bathroom holding Caleb (#bathtime) and caught a glimpse of my arms in the mirror… Immediately I started mentally bashing my body and what it looked like to me.
I am sure this is not something that only I struggle with, in fact I’m pretty sure it’s a pretty common thing among us women, especially after having a baby.
I shared yesterday (on Facebook and Instagram) how my 45minute workouts in the mornings have become “sacred ground” for me! It’s time to decompress, return to the land of the sane, and just sweat it all out.
But when I started this postpartum journey it was with a bit of an agenda – to get back to pre-baby weight as soon as possible.
Over the past few months I have learnt sooo much about my body and my mind, I’ve had to put aside my ego, and I’ve realized that what they tell you is largely (aka completely) incorrect. 6 weeks is NOT enough time to “get back to normal,” in fact, as strong as I feel at the moment, even 5 months is not enough time to fully recover from growing and birthing a tiny human!
The ridiculous pressure we feel from the outside world, and then end up putting on ourselves, can end up making one feel broken and inadequate.
I have felt frustrated with a scale that won’t budge, instead of feeling grateful for a body that grew, housed, and now perfectly nourishes my tiny human.
I have felt embarrassed about my belly, instead of feeling proud of my healthy baby.
I have felt anxious about the fact that I’m a health and fitness coach, and yet I can’t make this weight “disappear.”
How messed up is that?!
I had to take a massive step back and decide what was really important – giving my baby a mom with her pre-baby body back, or giving my baby a mom who feels strong, healthy, and empowered.
I choose the second option!
I am sure I will have moments of slipping back into my frustrated, embarrassed, and anxious self, but each day I will remind myself to choose…
That is the example I want to be for my baby.
That is what I will keep working towards!