The Journey into Mommyhood: You’ll never guess what I found in my wardrobe…

Tonight I am heading to a work function with Rob. This morning I tried to find something to wear, you’ll never guess what I found in my wardrobe…

Nothing.

11 weeks ago I gave birth to a perfect, heathy little boy. He is the absolute joy and delight of my life. I love every second with him. I miss holding him when he naps in his swing, I spend way too much time staring at him once I’ve put him down at night, and I scroll through all the photos I have ever taken of him once he is asleep. And yet I still struggle with what my postpartum body looks like and that I have nothing to wear out the house.

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Before I got pregnant I was in the best shape of my life. I had just finished P90X3 and was diligently focused on my nutrition. During my pregnancy I stayed active. Everyone told me the weight would just “drop off” or “melt away,” especially since I was planning on exclusively breastfeeding and I was doing yoga and PiYo. Well let me tell you, that has most certainly NOT been the case for me.

It has been both enlightening and completely frustrating. I have done lots of reading and researching about it, and gladly found out that there was not something wrong with me, since everyone seemed to think I would be back to pre-pregnancy shape in no time. Here’s a little excerpt from an article, “The Princess. The bump. Your body. How long does it really take to recover after pregnancy and birth?” from alittlefitter.com

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This morning my emotions and frustrations won. I looked in the mirror, trying to find something I could just wear to my chiropractic appointment, and resigned myself to maternity leggings and a stretchy t-shirt.

My body has done something amazing, I have grown a perfect tiny human and my body is now producing his sole source of nourishment, and yet still I feel frustrated that I can’t have it all – the perfect baby AND my old body back.
I am killing my workouts, I feel stronger than ever, and yet still I feel frustrated that it doesn’t seem to be showing.

It made me take a step back and remember that my health and fitness goal for this year is to be the healthiest and happiest version of myself so that I can be the best mother and wife possible for my little family.

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It is not about a number on a scale or the size of my jeans, but about living a healthy and fulfilling life.

At the end of the day I am the only one who can give my child a happy mother.
I am the only one who can give my child a healthy mother.
I am the only one who can give myself the love and self-care that allows me to be the best mother I can be.

So, tomorrow we try again… right now, however, I have to go find something to wear to tonight’s function!

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